YES, I am quitting, I have to walk my talk.
Life for me is being Love-in-Action. Life for me is being in-integrity and authentic. Life is about paying attention and adding value. Life for me is being congruent and doing what I love. Life for me is connecting with Source and all that is, which includes you.
WomenLikeMe is about all those things as well.
I have spend 7 years cleaning up my environment so my conscious and unconscious mind with all its unserving beliefs had a chance to align and I had time to learn to act from Love and integrity in all things I do.
In those years I focused on the incongruencies in my life and the toxins of my own mind that had me behave in those out-of-integrity, destructive and fearful ways.
I learned that unconscious minds do not give up that easily and that we all have an incredible invisible power steering our lives without us knowing. Our unconscious mind is an incredible amount bigger than our conscious mind. Our conscious brain is the size of a pea in comparison with our unconscious mind.
The fact is that we all need our huge unconscious mind, we cannot function without it. It let us drive the car far more effectively than our conscious mind can; just remember how difficult it was when you were consciously learning to drive one.
Our unconscious mind in and by itself is not wrong though; it would have worked fine if it was programmed in a non-toxic environment that had pristine original divine thoughts about life as a foundation. Unfortunately it is not, it is programmed with a whole lot of crap that unconsciously steers me the wrong way on many many occasions.
The fallacy of changing your beliefs is that you cannot change anything when you continue to live unprotected in the very toxic environment that made your unconscious ’sick’ in the first place; hence my interest in detoxing my mind AND environment together.
So far so good, I have come a long way and living in Nature as I now do has accelerated the process hugely.
BUT … in comes cyberspace. For the past seven years John and I have keenly worked on the WomenLikeMe project.
We have gained quite a wisdom of what is going on, we live it.
We took our time and the result is a huge understanding. Non toxic places do that to you, expand your conscious knowing.
WomenLikeMe went on line fourteen months ago to add value to everyone who felt life could be lived differently.
Wilma’s blog was born with the intention to give you a taste of what WomenLikeMe, John and I had to offer and inspire you to make changes to your life in the non-toxic environment of the program.
Hopeful that we would change our code of conduct to a respectful one, to honor our heart-centered selves in this new environment, I set out to connect with other people.
I am sad to say, I only have been able to do so with a pitiful few.
For two years I have spend most of my days behind the computer, to find that the brave new world of cyberspace is not any different from the old one.
It appears to me that most connecting happens at the level of swapping business cards at networking events, I give you mine if you give me yours. Nobody pays any real attention to the messages or makes real connections for other than the WIIFM reasons.
It is all about quantity and very little about quality.
People read posts, leave appreciative comments but very seldom actually share in their comments about the changes they have made, leaving me wondering what actually happened.
On my own blog very few people took the trouble to contact me personally and clarify further what I was saying. Very few people actually showed any interest in themselves, took their growth or what was on offer serious enough to further explore what was shared on the blog.
It made me pay attention. It made me feel uncomfortable because I noticed cyberspace started to have a toxic effect on me. I too even have left comments that were meaningless, I always left my computer after each day with questions about my motives and the quality of what I was doing.
Despite years of working on congruency, cyberspace in its quest for quantity and superficialness had me go backwards in seconds, leaving me at the end of the day out of sorts and unhappy with myself.
How to stay congruent and grow the blog?
I have not found an answer. I don’t know.
What I do know is that I do not like who I have become in cyberspace as I set out to grow the readership and to make WomenLikeMe a thriving business and a vibrant community.
What I also know is that I do not like what I see in cyberspace. Most bloggers are meaninglessly socializing, hardly going for any depth and hardly paying any real attention to sustainable change.
All I see is a lot of noise.
I have to protect myself; I have come too far to contaminate myself again with toxic noise and little congruency.
You, me and our hearts are too precious to me.
So as I do not know how to do it in-integrity, I quit blogging and John and I have closed WomenLikeMe.
I continue to live in paradise in peace and love, looking after my conscious and unconscious mind and being careful what I am feeding it. I trust that the vibes will reach you that way.
The time for our solid self development program is obviously not yet come.
I admired the success of Leo Babauta, he is apparently genuinely getting through and yet his online course is NOT about self development and living congruently but how to make money with blogging. Go figure.
While I quit being present in cyberspace, I extend an invitation to all of you who did touch me and whom I have touched.
I am grateful for your sharing and connectedness. I am still available if you have any questions about my blog posts or for me personally; I love you to write me an email.
I invite you to read my blog posts again as they have a lot of content that can support you in your confusion about the toxins in your life.
Until we meet again, may you know that you already live in heaven on earth.
May you know all is well and that you are provided for.
May you know we are all connected and safe.
May you know we are in transition and we are to fulfill our role as powerful collaborative co-creators with Nature, Nature whose role we have grossly ignored.
May you be Love-in-Action always.