Most of the time I peacefully accept that there is an invisible bigger plan and that all I have to do is trust. It will all work out so long as I am doing my bit by being love in action.
And then WHAMOO, out of the blue comes my mind, like a screaming banshee to shatter all this peace.
Like it did this week.
For 2 whole days this screaming banshee of a mind would NOT shut up and its voice successfully jolted me out of my peaceful state.
What was the cause of this entire racket?
It suddenly realized that our time here in this glorious Garden of Eden might be coming to an end. The lease ends in September and we have no plans as to what to do next. Not yet anyway.
So all hell broke lose; my mind became totally consumed by the want to have a linear plan about what’s next.
It just wouldn’t stop.
It called me all sort of names; stupid, ignorant, a dreamer and it brought up every weak point that it could possibly find.
Most of all it completely went to town about miracles; it sure had a lot of negative things to say about that.
This tantrum took me completely by surprise, although I do know that the mind tends to do this when it feels insecure. All it seeks is reassurance that all is well and that I CAN perform miracles. Knowing this didn’t make it any less annoying though.
In the past this would have resulted in a number of weeks of upset, nagging John about what we were going to do. I now, thankfully have ammunition to overcome this mind attack on miracles and put it to bed, pronto!
My effective arsenal consists of . . .
Hindsight. I realized that I have hindsight to prove their existence, as the post on miracles shows. It’s hard to deny how miraculously that story unfolded.
Then there are the books.
‘Love without End’ especially, explains intent and miracles in such a way that the mind cannot help but agree and therefore relax. It also works because the explanations speak to the heart as well as the mind.
In this book ‘Love Without End’ which I have mentioned before, Jesus explains many things however I’ll use this particular explanation to make my point.
He uses the life of the author, Glenda Green as an example of how intent and miracles relate to each other.
To give you a bit of a background . . . The book begins with Glenda Green, a well known painter being given the assignment to paint a portrait of Jesus. At first she refuses; who would sit for her as a model of Jesus?
Jesus himself appears to her and offers to be the model himself. So while he patiently sits for her and she paints, they talk and Glenda finds the answers to all her questions and more. I know this might sound a bit far fetched, however the book is a worthy read and very revealing.
Back to my point, which is to explain to you how both my mind and heart can together accept this take on intent and how miracles happen.
In the book Jesus uses Glenda’s life as an example.
Her story unfolds spectacularly similar to mine. In short it goes like this…
Jesus asks Glenda when a real intent for painting showed up in her life. She answers that when she was 3 years old she would simply drool over the books of famous painters.
Notice the similarity here; I drooled over gardens.
Then Jesus continues, did you know there and then that you were going to be a painter. Glenda said; No, I did not.
At a young age I didn’t know either that I wanted to get out of Holland to live closer to nature, I just liked gardens.
Then he asks her to observe what happened next in her life.
Glenda tells him that her mother, having noticed her interest and enthusiasm, organized art classes. Consequently at school she won awards for her art although at that time she had more interest in horses. She still did nothing to intentionally pursue a career as a painter. She just went along living her life; mind you she did NOT refuse the art classes nor deny the affirming comments from others regarding her talent.
Jesus points out that the Universe was responding to her initial expressed intent; her interest in paintings by ensuring that her mother send her to art class and ensuring that she was awarded at school for her art talents.
The Universe too responded to my great interest in gardens by showing me the one on the way to school, by having me experience long camping holidays in nature and by having that picture of New Zealand appear.
Jesus goes on to explain that your intent or your dreams are like seeds, planted at some point in your life.
All you have to do is, every so often acknowledge them and water them.
In the meantime other people and the universe will contribute to their growth as well.
And there you have it. That is it in a nutshell.
Looking back on what has happened to me, there are striking similarities to the book.
I too had a dream and intent as a little girl.
I must have unwittingly kept the seed alive by having long holidays. However during the rest of the time it was buried while I was busy with other things like studying, then earning a living, getting married until the Universe put that photo of New Zealand right under my nose.
I have been lucky though.
I insisted, each year on at least 7 consecutive weeks camping. Spending this amount of time in the outdoors must have kept my heart strong enough. It meant the universe and others were still aware of my passion and I was able to recognize opportunities when they came along and to go for them.
The book made it very clear that once the seed is planted, we don’t need external forces to make it grow.
When the seed is a desire straight from the heart and fuelled by love, it will always be aligned with God’s will. It will always fit into the bigger plan and bingo, a miracle will occur, in its own good time.
Once it is planted, all that needs to happen is to jolt that desire awake every now and then by either being still enough to have your emotions be touched by a visual image, music or a movie or by choosing to do an activity that is fuelled by that desire such as me and my camping for example.
My mind absolutely went quiet when once, yet again, it had been reminded of all this.
The explanations in the book are so good.
They certainly help me bridge the gap between the knowing and the do-ing; to have life happen in a way that is joyful, peaceful and free from fear, struggle and force.
Once more I trust that another miracle is just around the corner while keeping my mind’s tantrums at bay.
It is also encouraging to have more and more people telling me I am not alone in this. So when you do, it certainly makes a difference.