Yes! I really find that I hold back in sharing a certain depth of my reality with certain people. Most of the time it is fear as a result of my perception of their ‘listening’ of me – a fear of rejection perhaps.
Two things have come of this though: I realise I am more conscious about who I now choose to hang out with and the ‘new’ people in my life are people I AM prepared to share my reality with. And, the ‘old’ people in my life who I have had the courage to share my reality with have only ever been supportive and respectful- even where they didn’t really ‘get it’. Then again, my reality is very much to do with human connectivity and love so perhaps I just consciously created that

One part I found interesting in what you were saying was the bullet points and how you unconsciously avoid talking about your Garden of Eden with certain people. There is one person at work who I discuss all this with at work. That is my friend Sam. We both hold each other accountable and and keep everything alive by sharing. The rest of the team I am careful with how I relate to them and I will not tolerate any poisonous mundane chatter infecting my positive outlook. This doesn’t mean I snob them off, far from it. It takes a lot more energy however to be around those people because you have to observe yourself and that you don’t start dipping into negative meaningless chatter. Sam resonates with me which is a good part of being in the hierarchy Mon to Fri. Its like a gem amongst rocks. I have fewer friends now because of my stand but I have noticed that they are high quality people who also have less friends. That tells me something hehe.

In terms of that word “reality”, Landmark had a huge impact there for me. The shackles came loose for me when I surrendered to the idea that “I have no idea what all this is that I see.” If someone can argue my personal truth then my truth is just another opinion. Its restricting to suddenly decide that life is sorted. We begin to die. I feel myself slipping into this way of thinking sometimes. To wonder is better because your mind wanders more. Creativity flows better. To lay down ground rules in your mind that life is a certain way and everyone else is wrong unless in agreement with you can give birth to arrogance. I grapple with this sometimes. My mind slips back into my own personal hierarchy where I am king and others walk as pawns in MY game. I know I have gone too far when I notice that I am feeling slimy. To a person with no distinctions the ego will deny this feeling. I can’t get away with this though.