I had a very similar experience of emotions when selling my first house in Canada in order to go travelling with Rebecca to New Zealand.

At the time, I was “happy” with how things were (I’d now say I was happy about some things, and tollerant about other things), but in order for me to be freed up to fully jump into the vision that Rebecca and I had co-created, I knew I couldn’t “dive into the pool and keep one foot on dry land”. I had co-designed the house with my builder, and it was exactly how I wanted it, so I’m sure you can understand there was a lot of pain associated with the idea of uprooting myself and saying goodbye to my biggest achievement to date (I was 21 at the time of ground-breaking, 22 at the time of completion, and 25 at the time of selling it, so it was, in a way, my equivalent of John’s ocean-crossing boat, albeit a lot less mobile). Rebecca was a great team-mate for always keeping the bigger vision in front of my eyes, because there were times when it was very tough for me to keep packing and saying goodbye to my “established life” with my friends around me, my beloved german sheppard, Sagan, (we found him a new home with people who love him very much) and my house.

Once we were on board the bus with 2 backpacks and 2 suitcases to head across Canada toward Vancouver (where our air travel would begin), and the bus pulled out of the station, there was something entirely fresh and new about life. I wasn’t worried or sad anymore at the “loss” of my old, settled life. I was in the air between the diving board and the water, and there was no turning back. Whether the water was warm or cold, both of my feet were about to get soaking wet.

Now I am back in Canada, primarily to be around the people I love, secondarily to start businesses, and in the two or three times I’ve driven past my old house (to see what the current owners have done with the place — not much it turns out), I just think about how much LIFE I would have missed out on in the past 6 years if I’d stayed planted right there in my little patch.

Be bold, Wilma! You’ve got an amazing team around you, and you’ve already picked up and move countries before, too. I know you’ll do fabulously well with your new vision. Remember to stretch out your arms and take a big deep breath when you’re in the air between the diving board and the water. My experience was that this kind of “swimming in freedom” is something innate that I already knew how to do once I hit the water, and the fear of drowning was only an illusion, myth, rumour that caused me to hesitate at first. (In this way, Leverage & You shows up to me like learning and practicing new swimming skills, learning how to read the flow of the currents and create new ones.)