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The freedom to just do and ask!

Posted on February 20th, 2008 by Wilma (6 Responses)

Freedom.

Feeling free is the last thing I experience right now.
However determined to give freedom a go I have to keep going!
No turning back to the padded cage for me, I have a Garden of Eden beckoning me.

We have done it!

The house is for sale.

We got the painter in and of course we signed up with a Real Estate agent.
Now that it is all official, I have a hard time coping with not knowing how it all is going to pan out.
Sometimes I am just plain scared; I keep thinking “what am I doing, selling my lovely haven?” and notice that I say “I”.

I observe myself as per John’s suggestion and I wonder why am I not elated.
Am I not freely right this moment pursuing my dream?

No, I am not elated.
I just have to look at my longest ‘to do’ list ever and I feel the panic rising.
When trickles of bad news stories about the down turn in the economy are coming my way, my hands instantly become sweaty.

Instead of enjoying the whole process, I wreak havoc with my mind and I need all the help I can get to turn the panic back into enjoyment.

But I am honestly trying my hardest to stop whimping and have a powerful, free woman show up.
Because one thing I have gotten from everything I have read and learnt lately is that we are powerful creators beyond measure.
And besides that, I remember reading and hearing that we also can call on mighty allies, here and in the universe.
So we can do it, whatever we want to do; we just have to ask and play team.
I don’t have to sweat it alone, well….

All I need to do now is to find my mighty allies, feel free to ask and get cracking.

After taking some deep breath, I look around and the first two allies I see are right there in front of me, John and the painter.

Although I see no angel wings, those two are apparently it.

But now what to do with my mighty allies?
I don’t think handing over my long ‘to do’ list to them is somehow going to work.

However on my ‘to do’ list is a lot of inside painting and although I just wanted to get on with it, John nudges me and suggests I could talk to the painter and ask for some tips at least.

I nearly said to him; “Never, I better let him get on with his stuff, he won’t give his trade secrets away”, but somehow I kept my lips zipped.
I looked at John, looked at the painter outside and thought; “Why not? After all they are my mighty allies.”

So I shuffle outside and say; “Ahum, may I ask you something?”
And he says of course; “Yes, ask away” and I haven’t looked back since.
(If you are looking for a great painter and keep your time free, ask me. I have his number!)

He is even helping me with a really hard part I didn’t have a solution for myself.

Although my list is still long and it looks like it will be full on for the next few weeks, I somehow don’t feel so bogged down anymore.

If I get stuck with something else, I just take a deep breath, remember to look for mighty allies and I might see . . . you.

And back to mind gym again.
I can see that in giving myself freedom to ask, I can create a lot more with less panic.
So of course I am inviting you too to start the practice of noticing your allies and start asking.

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  1. joyologist says:
    February 20, 2008 at 10:58 am

    hello wilma…..*I am in Australia visiitng my son in brisbane…..and your item today triggered a thing that has me questioning sometimes….so many people tell me to be in a position of co-creation…and at times i think i get it…and then it eludes me ….i have a feeling now it means just what you say about asking allies.. and it also means conencting to source so it is using the energetic laws around us to further out own creation…..i would love further comment on this as it is somethng that is with me every day….sometime alsmost there or fully there ….and then absent….and then thoughts of karma and life path and timing come up for me ….fititng them all in… and then i wonder if i am getting too much in my head and need to vacate there and get into my heart…..

    and i just love what is happening for you…how exciting….for both of you….a dream in process nd i am so glad to have been an observer and a friend….we observe our own progress less well than others can see…..you go!!! Pat

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  2. Wilma says:
    February 20, 2008 at 1:23 pm

    Hi Pat. Great that it brings up a lot as it is an unusual issue we are dealing with and great that you are with your son!
    I now tend to go into my heart when things get tough, my mind just feeds on problems and acutally doesn’t like solutions.
    Back to painting now and you have a loving time in Brisbane. Love Wilma
    By the way, see how allies turn up…with lovely comments.

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  3. Suzanne Couper says:
    February 20, 2008 at 4:30 pm

    hi Wilma
    I am overwhelmed at your decision… and vacilate between Wow!!! good on you / what a great example you set/ what high integrity you have / you guys certainly do ‘walk the talk’ ………… to feeling alarm that you are not keep a backstop position………. I’ll get over it as I practice being less cautious and more trusting. Thanks for the test. Enjoy the journey. Blessings and abundance ……. Much love Suzanne

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  4. Wilma says:
    February 20, 2008 at 5:12 pm

    Hi Suzanne, it did work; you are here on my blog as a mighty ally with your comment!
    Thank you, as it feels like that for me too, sometimes.
    But I know that if I want it and it doesn’t harm anybody or anything and it will create joy, I cannot but happen.
    However knowing I have friends who can feel what I feel helps a lot. Love to you too, wilma

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  5. Michael says:
    February 22, 2008 at 3:46 am

    Hi Wilma!

    I had a very similar experience of emotions when selling my first house in Canada in order to go travelling with Rebecca to New Zealand.

    At the time, I was “happy” with how things were (I’d now say I was happy about some things, and tollerant about other things), but in order for me to be freed up to fully jump into the vision that Rebecca and I had co-created, I knew I couldn’t “dive into the pool and keep one foot on dry land”. I had co-designed the house with my builder, and it was exactly how I wanted it, so I’m sure you can understand there was a lot of pain associated with the idea of uprooting myself and saying goodbye to my biggest achievement to date (I was 21 at the time of ground-breaking, 22 at the time of completion, and 25 at the time of selling it, so it was, in a way, my equivalent of John’s ocean-crossing boat, albeit a lot less mobile). Rebecca was a great team-mate for always keeping the bigger vision in front of my eyes, because there were times when it was very tough for me to keep packing and saying goodbye to my “established life” with my friends around me, my beloved german sheppard, Sagan, (we found him a new home with people who love him very much) and my house.

    Once we were on board the bus with 2 backpacks and 2 suitcases to head across Canada toward Vancouver (where our air travel would begin), and the bus pulled out of the station, there was something entirely fresh and new about life. I wasn’t worried or sad anymore at the “loss” of my old, settled life. I was in the air between the diving board and the water, and there was no turning back. Whether the water was warm or cold, both of my feet were about to get soaking wet.

    Now I am back in Canada, primarily to be around the people I love, secondarily to start businesses, and in the two or three times I’ve driven past my old house (to see what the current owners have done with the place — not much it turns out), I just think about how much LIFE I would have missed out on in the past 6 years if I’d stayed planted right there in my little patch.

    Be bold, Wilma! You’ve got an amazing team around you, and you’ve already picked up and move countries before, too. I know you’ll do fabulously well with your new vision. Remember to stretch out your arms and take a big deep breath when you’re in the air between the diving board and the water. My experience was that this kind of “swimming in freedom” is something innate that I already knew how to do once I hit the water, and the fear of drowning was only an illusion, myth, rumour that caused me to hesitate at first. (In this way, Leverage & You shows up to me like learning and practicing new swimming skills, learning how to read the flow of the currents and create new ones.)

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  6. Wilma says:
    February 22, 2008 at 8:59 am

    @Michael. You are another mighty ally with your comment.
    Just what I needed to hear, fantastic. I can so understand your grief to let your lovely home go and how interesting it is to revisit it after so many years.
    Very encouraging, thanks Michael, Wilma :)

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