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I don’t want to clean my room!

Posted on August 15th, 2007 by Wilma (4 Responses)

Since I discovered some really interesting blog sites I have been behaving like a kid.

I am glued to my computer screen and I have no intention of cleaning my room or doing my chores so to speak.

Since I have discovered big time bloggers and what they are up to, John is lucky to find enough ingredients to make a peanut butter sandwich for dinner.

Then I say to John; “There is so much to learn about this blogging”.
And while I say that all of a sudden I notice the knot in my stomach and the feeling of real urgency.
What? ? ?
So instead of feeling the joy to explore all that new exciting stuff at my leisure, I feel overwhelm and annoyance about my ignorance, slow progress and decreased productivity in other areas.

I feel pressure.

I want to know it now, I want to have the best blog now and I resent all my other duties that take me away from my computer.

Right.
Stop right there.
Time to see what is going on here.
Being enthusiastic like a kid is great, I enjoy my own excitement.
But starting to resent being away from the computer is not great and that sense of urgency is also not to be encouraged.

After some time out and talking with John I get to see what is driving me here.

Blow me down, look what is showing up.
Good old Scarcity.
Of course, what else.

The feeling that time runs out and I have to make the best blog now.

The feeling that someone else will beat me if I don’t hurry up and get my ideas together.

The feeling that if I don’t ride the wave now I will miss out.

The fear of looking stupid and not learning fast enough.

It is all about making wrong where I am right now and feeling I miss out if I don’t do something.
It is all about not allocating time and feeling it should be business as usual.
These are the scarcity issues that make my life miserable and kill the joy of undertaking new things.

So, back to realizing everything is perfect right now, and trusting that everything happens in its own time and that I don’t have to rush things.

Ha, back to the computer I go, and we will have a proper dinner tonight or do I have friends who are offering dinner at their place . . .

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  1. Beth Webster says:
    August 15, 2007 at 9:11 am

    I’m off tonight for attending the Jubilee of my old primary school, In Timaru- Can any good ever come out of Timaru? -my Mother used to ask… Ringing in my ears is the suggestion that I might be the oldest there and the reply from another that there is a 93 year-old attending so I continue, with high glee !
    I look forward to demonstrating to all those kids that I have developed from the (?pathetic) victim that I was… U just listen when I tell you next Blog !! Bestest dinners to U 2.

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  2. Wilma says:
    August 15, 2007 at 9:16 am

    Beth, be the best kid on the blog (oeps block), have fun in Timaru.

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  3. Fiona says:
    August 23, 2007 at 8:57 pm

    Wait ’til you discover Virtual Worlds Wilma; you’ll look up from your computer and a whole week would have gone by…
    So if we tell ourselves ‘there is plenty of time’ will this relieve the pressure… or is it a fact of the space-time continiuum that as we get older time passes faster….? (help!)

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  4. Wilma says:
    August 24, 2007 at 8:11 am

    Soon we understand time is made up and it is not linear, until then yes time flies……not because we get older (Fiona!!!), we are seeing more things we want to do…..

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