The Intenders of the Highest Good had these wise words this week;
It’s a strange predilection of mankind that we look for confirmation for our ailments. We look to see what happened to everybody else who has experienced similar symptoms to ours, and in doing so, we do ourselves a great disservice. What many people don’t realize is that just because somebody else developed a chronic condition after showing similar symptoms to ours doesn’t mean that we will do the same.
Last week I bravely tackled *unbending intent* and I’ve been questioning intent ever since.
Is there a significant difference when intent shows up or not?
Yes, there is.
An event where clear desire and *unbending intent* definitely didn’t show up was at my wedding.
In those years, I had no idea what I wanted, I was confused and couldn’t deal with my deepest desires.
I was torn between wanting not to be seen as middle class and my suppressed desire to be a princess for a day.
I had no idea how to handle that tension and developed a *wedding phobia* instead.
All I wanted was for it to be over and me to be as inconspicuous as was possible for a bride.
In the end I wore a plain dress, the ceremony became one of those meaningless affairs, the party was ho hum and the whole wedding ended up being a drag.
Once I got over the whole wedding ceremony phobia -years later- I could kick myself when I realized what I missed out on.
Needless to say that the marriage also lacked intent and ended up leaving me with a feeling that something was missing.
Oh, how I love having arrived in my Garden of Eden.
When I declared at the beginning of the year that I wanted to eat flowers and move from the city to a rural property with a bigger garden and a wonderful house, I had every intent to make that happen.
I was determined and very sure that that was what I wanted.
Even if it looked touch and go for a while when we didn’t sell our house; sure enough we did arrive at this current wonderful property, which we are now renting for one year.
It was one of the first times in my life that I so intentionally worked with intent and since then I have started to pay it more attention.
After once again reading the Carlos Castaneda books, I got to see even more that intent is the most important driver behind getting your desires happening.
In these series of books Carlos describes his time as an apprentice with a traditional ‘Man of Knowledge’, a Yaqui Indian, who is a hard task master and constantly points out that Carlos is hopelessly ineffective and very sloppy in his behaviors and actions.
He constantly hammers Carlos about unbending intent and powerful actions and he shows Carlos that actions without intent are wasteful and very seldom effective or very productive.
Intent, let alone unbending intent is not an easily understood concept, at least not by me and I got painfully aware of my lack of skills with intent this weekend.
Fright fantastic, brilliant and awesome?
Yes and you know what!
Failing to embrace fright and its brilliance has locked you and me into predictability, has you and me being risk averse and living boring predictable lives if we are not careful!
Instead of accepting fright as being part of facing the unknown, embracing learning and doing new things; instead of seeing its brilliance, we have been taught to avoid fright and worse we have collapsed fright into fear and being very stressful.
And that is the worst thing we could do with fright, collapsing it with fear and stress!
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